Puzzled

What a day. It has been a bit weird. Seems like instagram and a few people on Facebook are posting remembrances of a few kpop idols who committed suicide. Ome is Jonghyun and one is Sulli. Those 2 I know. But the other 3 I don't.

It made me think about how unstable I am mentally. How a month ago I joined a website for people wanting to commit suicide. Researching where I went wrong in my attempt 7 months ago. Still have no idea why I am still alive and why I want to be dead so much.